monday..

it's definitely not a head start to the week.. i feel so troubled, stressed up and sad today, seemingly for some unpleasant reasons.. never have i ever felt this way before, not that i remember. not even when exams are round the corner. sian... i hate myself for being so careless, i hate myself for being so irresponsible , i hate myself for being so stupid....hai.. what to do? that's me. i'm utterly disappointed with myself.. i ought to seek a way out to all these..

school has been fine so far. i just simply hate the lessons and the lectures. they're so boring! i always find myself wandering in dreamland in the midst of lectures... just couldn't help but dozed off.. perhaps, i had too much of fun during the long period of break after o level...school work is slowly exerting pressure on me.. i'm starting to feel the stress.. ahhh! i missed the stoneage 06s45 of vj.. i miss all my ex-classmates, the fun that we had... will time ever turn back???